Week 4
205.6 *slump* 2lb gain AGAIN. Is this how it’s going to be, scale? Huh? Is it!?!?!? BoING boING! Just call me Yo-Yo girl!
So, why? Well it’s the same problem. I’m a LOUSY tracker. So this week I’m making a commitment. I will write down every single thing I eat, even if I don’t immediately know or count the points and I will MAKE time at the end of the day to add them up, no matter what. I could always do it before I go to bed. Grrr.
I also just had an epiphany. I do not have time to look up what I eat every time I’m hungry or every time I randomly decide “Hey, that looks tasty!”. So I think I will take some time to plan out what I’m going to eat *every day*. It won’t be perfect but at least then I am SURE not to go over points this way! I mean, I make general meal-plans every week anyway as that’s how I grocery shop these days. But I mean, what I’m having for breakfast, snack, lunch, munch and dinner every day. Oh and I need to increase my fluid intake again. I was doing great for a while, there.
The truth is that this past week has just sucked, utterly. It’s been a very hard week and I’m feeling extremely down right now and that’s never good for any kind of “get healthy” mindset I’m in. Because, see, trying to get healthy is treating myself well. And sometimes I let myself believe that it just doesn’t matter. Sometimes it doesn’t feel like it really matters to anybody else so why should it matter to me? Emo? ME? Yeh, lol, sometimes.
In other, less depressing news (ok, not really) my youngest daughter wants me to eat her. I swear, she’s practically dressing herself for the dinner plate. Argh.
I also struggle with feeling important enough to take good care of myself. *HUGS* Don’t let the scale get you down, just start fresh from today.
I wonder if you might enjoy reading along and commenting on a blog by a friend of mine IRL — Confessions of a Fat Loser. She started blogging on April 5, at a weight just a bit less than 300 lbs, and has lost 16 lbs in a bit less than two months. One thing she’s doing is blogging her food diary, which I think is helping her. Anyway, just thought I’d throw it out there.
Planning ahead is a very good strategy in my experience.
Erin