So yeh, 202lbs. One step forward, two steps back. Ugh.

So today’s weigh in was actually a surprise for me. I gained. Not a lot, only a pound, but still. I didn’t think I was going to be seeing any real loss, but I did think I’d done better than that! I certainly sweated enough to justify seeing at least a maintain! Right? Apparently not!

Upon reflection I think it’s fair to say that yesterday, at least, I did a bit too much snacking. And if I did it yesterday, it’s a fair bet I did it on other days. I also have not been doing a good job keeping my fluid intake up. Coffee doesn’t really count, can you believe that?!

Realizing this, I’ve decided to give tracking yet another crack. I am definitely more successful when I track points, I just don’t like doing it. But, well, sometimes we just have to do things we don’t like. I don’t particularly like frogging or ripping out stitches, either, but I do love knitting and sewing! I guess, like with my hobbies, sometimes ya just have to put up with irritating details to get any good results.

So anyway, today’s weigh-in was 203lbs even. As mentioned, this is a 1lb gain from last week and brings me to a total loss of 5lbs (in 7wks? Really? I think it’s time to up the ante). You would have laughed if you were watching me. I always wait until that special moment in the bathroom has passed before weigh-in. This means that I’ve been dressed for quite a while so in what is quickly becoming a ritual, I strip down to nothing but my skivvies. Then I bring out the scale and put it in exactly the same place (because if I don’t I won’t get a consistent reading as it uses pressure on the “feet” to get a measurement and our floor’s not flat in ever spot). My scale is actually a black digital scale and looks nothing like the one in the picture above. I also do not have such nice legs, either, though my toes ARE painted red. You wanted to know, right?

I always take three measurements before being satisfied with what the scale says (because the first one is always wrong) but today I did six. Why? Well for starters, the first time I stood on it the damn thing lied as usual (I wear, scales are mean-hearted bitches), telling me I weighed 206.5lbs. Well I knew that was crap, there is no way I gained 4lbs and some change in a week. Oh Heeaaaalll no, it’s not Bitch Week! I stood on it five more times, though, because for the briefest of moments, it kept flashing 202.8lbs before switching to 203. No amount of shifting my feet around on the scale would get it to stay there, though! Please, please tell me I am not the only one that encourages and tries to coerce my scale? “Oh come on, you can do it, go back to that other number! Don’t you want to make me happy? Doesn’t it make you feel good when I smile? COME ON YOU ROTTEN…” Oh you know you do! Don’t lie! Validate my weirdness!!!

205.6 *slump* 2lb gain AGAIN. Is this how it’s going to be, scale? Huh? Is it!?!?!? BoING boING! Just call me Yo-Yo girl!

So, why? Well it’s the same problem. I’m a LOUSY tracker. So this week I’m making a commitment. I will write down every single thing I eat, even if I don’t immediately know or count the points and I will MAKE time at the end of the day to add them up, no matter what. I could always do it before I go to bed. Grrr.

I also just had an epiphany. I do not have time to look up what I eat every time I’m hungry or every time I randomly decide “Hey, that looks tasty!”. So I think I will take some time to plan out what I’m going to eat *every day*. It won’t be perfect but at least then I am SURE not to go over points this way! I mean, I make general meal-plans every week anyway as that’s how I grocery shop these days. But I mean, what I’m having for breakfast, snack, lunch, munch and dinner every day. Oh and I need to increase my fluid intake again. I was doing great for a while, there.

The truth is that this past week has just sucked, utterly. It’s been a very hard week and I’m feeling extremely down right now and that’s never good for any kind of “get healthy” mindset I’m in. Because, see, trying to get healthy is treating myself well. And sometimes I let myself believe that it just doesn’t matter. Sometimes it doesn’t feel like it really matters to anybody else so why should it matter to me? Emo? ME? Yeh, lol, sometimes.

In other, less depressing news (ok, not really) my youngest daughter wants me to eat her. I swear, she’s practically dressing herself for the dinner plate. Argh.

That said, I must’ve done a better job with *something* as my scale told me that I now weigh 203.4lbs! That’s 2.8lbs lost this week bringing my total for the last three weeks to 4.6lbs lost. *sigh* I have to admit that while I’m thrilled I lost this week, I haven’t even managed to loose 5lbs in 3wks. That IS somewhat of a downer. Ah well. Pressing on!

My friends and I were joking around about doing a tv show about three fatties losing weight while eating tasty good food! I mean, we’re all fat, right? So we are obviously qualified to talk about how much we like food and we all like to cook! Ruby, over at Not Another Double Cheeseburger, has been doing WW’s and has been SO incredibly successful that she’s inspired me! I got to thinking and I’ve decided to do kitchen/food themed Mondays here on a weekly basis. What’s going to happen is I will feature a recipe I or one of my girls has tried complete with nutrition and allergy information (as I can) and a full review from how it was to cook to how it was to eat. Sound good? I think this could be a lot of fun. I’ve also got a contest idea brewing but it needs tweaking so more on that, later.

The other thing I thought I’d do was focus any diet/weightloss talk to Wednesdays. I need some way of holding myself accountable and I really don’t need *another* blog, lol. I think what I’ll do is post my weight, talk about whatever is going on in my head regarding this little journey and share whatever insights have come along the way. That way you only have to suffer through my weight-loss (or gain!) neurosis once a week.

For now, I leave you with two questions:

Monday Munchables or Monday Munchies?
Weighty Wednesdays or Weigh-in Wednesdays?